Billie Lourd, the daughter of Carrie Fisher and granddaughter of Debbie Reynolds, calls their deaths “impossible to deal with.”
Lourd, 25, sat down with Ellen DeGeneres on Tuesday and discussed losing the women in her life, whom she referred to as “goddesses.”
Billie Lourd speaks with Ellen DeGeneres during a taping of “The Ellen DeGeneres Show.”
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“Yeah, it’s completely surreal. There’s no way to really explain it,” she said after DeGeneres noted how difficult it must have been to lose her mother one day, and grandmother the next.
“It’s so hard to talk about. I don’t know, if I say that I’m doing good, I’m too happy. And if I say that I’m not doing good, then I’m a mess,” Lourd explained. “So it’s really hard to know what to say about it because it is just so surreal and impossible to deal with.”
The actress sat across from DeGeneres in the same spot where her mother Fisher made her final public appearance before her death in Dec. 2016.
“She always takes over any talk show in this really aggressive way, so kudos to you,” Lourd joked of her mom’s personality.
Lourd ended up with the acting bug, despite her parents’ initial reservations.
After her mom realized how comfortable she was on the set of “Star Wars,” she nudged Lourd to make it a career.
“I came home and my mom said, ‘You know, this is really weird that you’re comfortable here. This is one of the most uncomfortable environments in the world. If you’re comfortable here, you should do this,'” she recalled.
She now stars in “American Horror Story” and previously had a role in “Scream Queens.”
Carrie Fisher (l.) poses with mother Debbie Reynolds (c.) and daughter Billie Lourd (r.) in 2015.
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She told the mag, “I love being my mother’s daughter, and it’s something I always will be, but now I get to be just Billie.”